I have recently heard from the Director of Vocations, and the process is moving forward. I have been invited to appear before the Gregorian Brotherhood Council at the Mt. Alvernia Friary in Wappinger Falls NY the weekend of April 11-13, 2008. This is the moment of truth, for years my heart has drawn me in this direction, but various things and responsibilities pulled me in other directions. Yet this desire has always remained.
I will be interviewed by the Council, and if they so choose, I will be invited to return next summer to begin a more intentional part of my journey along with these Gregorian Friars. So, if accepted, in July, I would enter the Postulancy.
I am so nervous, excited, joyful and scared. I know perfectly well how unprepared I am, and how I can not now know were this journey will take me. My life will change, and much like a marriage, I will give myself over to others, no longer will I be the supposed captain of my soul. I have often said control is an illusion, now I suppose I will put that to the test.
So I am asking for prayer during this time, that God's will in my life be done. While I have a strong leading in this direction, I have a stronger desire to serve God more truly. I know perfectly well that they may say 'no', however I do trust the process, that God speaks in community this way.
I will report back when I return from New York.
Prayerful wishes for a peaceful discernment this weekend and in the weeks to come. God really does ask each of us, "What do you want?" The trust with which we answer that question makes God so happy.
Posted by: Donald | April 12, 2008 at 04:55 PM
I am so blessed to know you and to count you as my friend. Our God knows the desires of your heart, and best of all He places them there. May He watch over you and keep you on your jouney.
Posted by: karen | April 10, 2008 at 09:16 AM
"control is an illusion," yes, that is why we pray, and I will commit to remembering you in my prayers!
Posted by: Nate | April 09, 2008 at 03:14 PM
All shall be well. Fear not.
Blessings and prayers for you from Jerusalem.
Posted by: Dina | April 09, 2008 at 01:47 PM
May God give you the desires of your heart as you seek to serve Him!
Blessings,
Posted by: Rick Boyne | April 09, 2008 at 09:07 AM
Be at peace.
Posted by: Teresa | April 09, 2008 at 08:09 AM
I've lit a candle with prayer for you in the virtual chapel on my site:
http://www.liturgy.co.nz/virtualchurch/chapel.html
Posted by: Bosco Peters | April 09, 2008 at 04:36 AM
Many blessings, MiT; I have many of the same feelings and know exactly whereof you speak. My prayers go with you.
Posted by: bls | April 08, 2008 at 07:58 PM